Growing up

There comes a point in life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will... Sometimes at night you stay awake and think of the years gone by, what you did and what could have been done, what you said that you shouldn't have, what you should have said and you didn't, how you trusted people whom you shouldn't have, how you fought with people who loved you, how you compromised and never got acknowledged, how you had held on when you should have let go.. It's then when you wish you had an eraser.. which could have erased all the mistakes you had made. But then again life writes everything with a permanent marker which is almost impossible to erase. So you decide to learn from your mistakes and move on. But you never really learn from past mistakes. You just keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again.. with the hope that things will be different from last time, until you find yourself pushed up against a wall. It is only then that you realize that you have a choice to make. You can either stand there and pray that the wall doesn't collapse on you, or you can push yourself above the wall and emerge as a stronger person on the other side..... 

Some people make the choice in a day… and for people like me, it takes several years to learn and accept these few simple facts of life..